**This post totally has “Let Them See You” by JJ Weeks Band vibes fyi**
On December 1st, I had an interview for a program at the college I absolutely love. This program presented me with a great opportunity for my college career. The night before I was laying out what I was going to wear I had a breakdown. Not anything too dramatic, but up until that point I had been cool and calm about what was to come. I was ready. But, at that moment I felt this pressure and it just came out. That Friday morning, I got up early to take my sister to school, got ready, and waited. I was very nervous.
“Will I be able to convey to them my calling and passion?”
“What if I say the wrong thing?”
I sat on my bed for probably thirty minutes to an hour. Just praying. Simply coming to Him with my worries.
“Dear Lord, I pray that You will be with me today. Please show them my passion for ministry. Allow them to know my heart. If this is meant to be part of my path allow me to be accepted into the program. Give me the strength, composure, and confidence to display my will and calling. I pray you give me a sign to show me that I am supposed to be there. Show them You in me.”
So, we drove to the school and got there right on time. There were no parking spaces so I just got out of the car and my dad left to wander around the little town. I was the first one to arrive leaving me to sit by myself for a little while. Leaving me to become very anxious.
I became a little calmer after everything started. I had lunch with many people from the program, which was sort of stressful to begin with. I began to enjoy the whole process and this was a turning point in the day. I was excited to continue the day and take part in all of the events that it held. I met so many new people and it was difficult to keep everyone straight. Everything was going pretty well. I explored some of the campus and attended a class.
Then I got to the interview and I was surprisingly not very nervous. I went in and everything went well. All of the answers were flowing well. In the middle, I started to get this feeling of I am about to cry. I had come to love the program from what I had experienced and I did not want to mess up the interview. I could not even remember who my favorite singer was (shout out to Jack Johnson). I got through it. And it went well. I had the best day.
I left happy and excited. Then I had to wait. I had been told by what day I would receive a decision and I was stressing out about it towards the end. “Would I find out by the deadline?” I was so worried and I shouldn’t have been. There was no need. I received my acceptance by the day I had been told. I am so excited, but the fact that I got in is not the meaning of this post.
God had been with me and He is always with me. He made me strong, composed and confident throughout most of the day. I had prayed and he had listened.
“Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.”
1 John 5:14 (NKJV)
Those prayers you say in hope are heard by our Lord in Heaven. I feel it is very important to note when a prayer has been answered in a way that you can see.
“Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His face evermore!”
1 Chronicles 16:11
Seek Him and His strength. It is important to have these verses in mind when praying and when you are in need to trust Him.
I am very thankful for everything that has happened in the last few weeks and months, but I know that I still need His strength. There is no time in which He is not needed and there is no time in which He is not there.
**Note to the reader: Thank you for reading and I hope that at least one person is impacted in some way. Know that you are loved and that you are set part to be a part.**